I thank all those

I thank all those who laughed at my dreams;
You have inspired my imagination.
I thank all who wanted to squeeze me into their scheme;
They have taught me the value of freedom.

I thank all who have lied to me;
You have shown me the power of truth.
I thank all those who have not believed in me;
You have expected me to move mountains.
I thank all those who have written me off;
You have aroused my courage.

I thank all those who have left me;
They gave me room to create.
I thank all those who have betrayed me and abused;
You have let me be vigilant.
I thank all those who have hurt me;
They have taught me to grow in pain.

More importantly, I thank all
Who love me as I am;
They give me the strength to live.

it takes a brave man

I've been thinking a lot lately, been thinking about the last relationship. I thought that he was the one but then the more i think, the more i realize that he's not the one.
He's nice and some kind of good looking but he is a boy, not a man. He's not mature and strong enough to be with me.

Maybe it takes a brave man to be with me in a relationship, for i don't do well with huge egos and most important is i deserve the world, i am priority

Now I'm glad this was over

new hope

God's way is more beautiful than people, yap it's true. Last night i just got a text from my mom, and by them i realized that maybe my life will changed just in a snap of finger.
I thought that this is not just coincidence, maybe this is what we called fate. I have no one to wait here, so maybe it's better for me to go outside the country. I wanna have a better life, a better  me, and  the most important is, i wanna leave this all behind.

Just wish me a lot of luck, hope the process going well as i expect to be.

the worst thing. ever.

The way you treated me, the way you said you love me so much

Within a month, i'm the happiest girl ever. 

And then you've changed, without telling me why and I have no idea what to do

day by day, you've gone further.

become a stranger

Until thursday, you told me that we're done. You say you're sorry.

the worst thing is, you say you love me so much.

damn.

This is why i don't believe in that L-word anymore. 

I can't explain what i really feel right now.

it hurts, it hurts me, body and soul.

for almost 4 years, i forgot how it feels like.

and it's happening right now, right here.

you left me without explanations.

Are you feeling the same way too?

i guess not.

I shall be more silent and cold-hearted than you are now, and i wish i could hate you.
Thank you for the amazing month, for the birthday surprise. And for making me feel like I'm the happiest girl ever.

Thank you so much!