I thank all those

I thank all those who laughed at my dreams;
You have inspired my imagination.
I thank all who wanted to squeeze me into their scheme;
They have taught me the value of freedom.

I thank all who have lied to me;
You have shown me the power of truth.
I thank all those who have not believed in me;
You have expected me to move mountains.
I thank all those who have written me off;
You have aroused my courage.

I thank all those who have left me;
They gave me room to create.
I thank all those who have betrayed me and abused;
You have let me be vigilant.
I thank all those who have hurt me;
They have taught me to grow in pain.

More importantly, I thank all
Who love me as I am;
They give me the strength to live.

it takes a brave man

I've been thinking a lot lately, been thinking about the last relationship. I thought that he was the one but then the more i think, the more i realize that he's not the one.
He's nice and some kind of good looking but he is a boy, not a man. He's not mature and strong enough to be with me.

Maybe it takes a brave man to be with me in a relationship, for i don't do well with huge egos and most important is i deserve the world, i am priority

Now I'm glad this was over

new hope

God's way is more beautiful than people, yap it's true. Last night i just got a text from my mom, and by them i realized that maybe my life will changed just in a snap of finger.
I thought that this is not just coincidence, maybe this is what we called fate. I have no one to wait here, so maybe it's better for me to go outside the country. I wanna have a better life, a better  me, and  the most important is, i wanna leave this all behind.

Just wish me a lot of luck, hope the process going well as i expect to be.

the worst thing. ever.

The way you treated me, the way you said you love me so much

Within a month, i'm the happiest girl ever. 

And then you've changed, without telling me why and I have no idea what to do

day by day, you've gone further.

become a stranger

Until thursday, you told me that we're done. You say you're sorry.

the worst thing is, you say you love me so much.

damn.

This is why i don't believe in that L-word anymore. 

I can't explain what i really feel right now.

it hurts, it hurts me, body and soul.

for almost 4 years, i forgot how it feels like.

and it's happening right now, right here.

you left me without explanations.

Are you feeling the same way too?

i guess not.

I shall be more silent and cold-hearted than you are now, and i wish i could hate you.
Thank you for the amazing month, for the birthday surprise. And for making me feel like I'm the happiest girl ever.

Thank you so much!

NEW!

Been deleting some posts, yap my new life is just begin. Having a new relationship with a man that i love at the first sight. Oh yes it makes me happy, much happier. Even make me forget about the heartache that i recently feel. 

Of course some people say that i've been cheating on ****** but damn you  peeps! I'm not cheating anyway.

I don't know what's gonna happens next but well, i've got nothing to lose. 

You know, Things could always be worse though, I could've been falling from the sky without a parachute. There's always that.

so sick -ne yo

no more walking around with my head down, i'm so over being blue. Ha!

admit it!

Really hate to say this.
Really hate to admit that maybe I'm going through heartache again.
God, i hate this feeling.
I'm gonna build a wall, really high wall and i won't let them in.

day by day, bit by bit, to see where this leads. To enjoy of getting lost

exhausted

I'm really exhausted and feel a bit lonely here. So many people but no one to talk, once i talked i get so emotional. Oh god what a terrible week.

Empty

empty. Idk why.